Buddy, you need to look back at a thing called Causality, something I am trying to get to grips with.
Example, What made you who you are right now, and when? Things in your past, upbringing, young experiences, how you acted when you were younger. For me, it's what turned me to escapism, and why I'm overshot on it right now. Why am I doing this?
School. At school, it's a conflict of interests with others. If you find people with the right views and interests as you; Your best friends.
Why am I not in with the major extroverts? I'm just not into the same crap as them, and to be honest, I don't NEED to be. Sure, having the friends is cool, but I find myself asking myself now, "Do I want to be friends with these people? Heck NO!!!"
I can hold my own in sports, fights.
I love expressing myself, just get me set off on the right thing and I make people laugh hard, it feels great. Develop your hobbies, and your interests, it's a huge part of what makes you YOU and what you chosen to be. Or did you??
It's what I am exploring now.
Right now, my main problem is "angst". Godamned, hardcore, dark feelings of getting to grips with responsibility, changes, events, darker things and feelings, so much STUFF that has me thinking and zoned out from anything else in the world, I don't care what, I dont wanna be there, I'm not there, I can't let myself. Escapism. I need it. I need to go somewhere where I can vent all my feelings properly, where all the stress and ANGST is disappeared for a while. Temporary, but heaven while your doing it.
Girls? I've found myself to be quite a charmer; when I feel and need to be. Just like you, and everyone else, I'm assuming.
Truth be told, as a kid, I was never in full contact with the world around me, I had my own views, and was lost in my imagination. Hurt by my parents splitting, Its f*cked over my relationships with friends and partners. It should have taught me that it doesn't last forever. But its meant to last forever, right?
I know I'm not the only one, but Ive seen it happen. I dont wanna get hurt. Is this why my relationships are limited? I choose who I have to be with for this. I'm scarred on the inside. I'm muscular and fit on the frame, but beneath it is a messed up guy. And it's all angst, causality triggered by hormones thrown right all back at you in a painful torment. This is me right now.
So I have to let it out, have to free my feelings, my thoughts, I have to show the world ME properly. In the real world, I am pretty good at conversations, but I have some really introverted qualities. There are people more introverted than I. Back to my point;
THE INTERNET. It allows me to meet up with people with the same interests as me. It allows me to have fun, to express myself that feels locked and chained up, it sets my real personality free. Or who I want to be. But could I be what I want to be if it was not really me? Of course not! SO there you go.
Hopefully I'm making a TGWTG review style show, real soon ^_^ But at the moment it's Voice acting.
Right now I feel happy. Theres tomorrow. Where I may feel I've improved, I may feel I've wasted. But hopefully I'll learn something, more about myself.
Happiness is best when shared. You just gotta find the certain friends and people to share it all with.
I think I'm in the middle of the Introvert – Extrovert spectrum, at the moment leaning toward the intro, switch back to extro.
When walking by myself, I retreat back into the shell of real clouded thought. Figuring out what clears it. I know what, but coming to grips with it is hard.
It wont get solved, because it's too late, or impossible.
With time, maybe, or with willpower, I can forget things and move on.
Can we move on? I dont know. But old meories are coming to haunt me agin these last few years. I'm not the only one, but heck, reaching out is hard when your the only one in the school who feels the way I do.
Is hard.
It's all angst, and if it can get resolved it should go away.

And you learn…
Nothing.
Celebrate, good times COME ON!
Just be optimistic and do something about something Whatever something is! Its not one big problem, usually smaller ones you can tackle, and its all realistic, whether with other people, otther things, or yourself.
As long as you try and give the effort, it'll all work out.
I think. Cool Motto, anyway.
Thats as a big release for me, I know it is unedited, unstructured and badly thought out, but it's REALLY late and it hurts to stay up.
As long as you can improve yourself to fit how you can get others to react in good ways to you, you dont need fixing.
Everyone has things they can improve on.
I'm analysing as it goes through my head, here.
Introversion is something you invented. Put it this way, your thoughtful, deep and affected. Learn whats bugging you. THE WORLD!!! you may say, but sociability and getting past your shyness is a test in life.
Extroverts have a lot of problems. Big time. Secretly, everybody (people like me I guess, or normal people. I dont know! There not even liked by their own extro what) hates them. There nasty. There sad. It's not envy, more…pity and…just hate…because of their personality. They have their good qualitties, but a side all too dominant and selfish.
Extroverts take it in the ass. Seriously, They are attention seeking dumbasses who are really insecure tooo, more so, with the mobile cell thing.
Introverts can be selfish, but not for gain, for protection.
Going off on one here,
I will finally end by saying Introversion is not all too bad, just has its ups and downs you have to make sure you arent boring by other introverts standards, nam saying? Not all problems, the two can get along, but its good to be a mix.
Like I think i am. Sorry if this was a bit pointless…But I had fun writing it, so have fun, hope stuff is better, and you arent as down on it as you think.
Go out, contact your friends more.

Yes, this is so true. Because no one can read your mind and no one has walked a mile in your shoes, all they know is the exterior. That's all they can go on. So, in short, think of life as one big SIMS game, that's all it is. I know it's difficult for introverts to do. I struggle with this daily. We have too much integrity for our own good. We don't want to play the game. But a game it is. Dealing with extros is actually easy from this perspective. You can throw out any old BS clap trap as conversation and they're fine with it. You'll be liked and accepted as long as you talk. About anything.

I'm sure you know extros who are complete flipping idiots, no exagerration. But somehow everyone loves them and they're popular and invited to everything. You sit back and wonder amazed, WTF? How does this oaf get invited into "polite" company? They feed the extroverts. That's how. That's what you learn to do and they don't ride you as much for being quiet and sullen. Just be glad you can go home and shut the world out.

Once I accepted the fact, I became much more comfortable with myself and accepted that being quiet in a crowd fits me way more than pushing myself to be part of the noise. Funnily though, by accepting the fact that I am not one for crowds, I actually managed to be more better at blending in than sticking out like a sore thumb.

So, it's not really that bad to be an introvert. Most of the smart people in the world are generally one. The most important thing is to be able to accept it yourself, and not hate yourself for being one, as it would only lead to pain if you continue to reject what you are. I've been through that phase, and trust me, the mood swings are horrible.

If you'd like a chat about it too, I'm available at the channel as well . The Internet is wonderful, wonderful thing for introverts *wink*.

First, we must be twins or something since we do and think the same way. Second, you need to learn to accept yourself. Lastly, just because you're one way doesn't mean you need to be another way. Are you still in high school? I like came to terms with that shit during high school.

I've learned to accept how I am and I've promised myself to never give up on myself because of the way I am. Since it just seems to me that a lot of nerdy/ hobby enthusiast people are fat and useless.

I refuse to become this way. I've decided to let my outward appearance do the speaking for me by reading, exercising and dress.